cause these eyes to see

Meet my Fiancee...

2010-03-30T10:27:00.002+13:00

A solid man of God, with a heart after our King to be glorified, as Jesus truly is worthy... that the Father heart of God would be known... Dennis Glas is his name. A man who fought for me even in some of my most ugliest moments and revealed his love for me to be true & unwavering, not intimidated by any of my mess or my past not even the things that are trying to overshadow me in fear... but he has boldly and confidently proclaimed and revealed his love for me and that together we will walk through ever valley and climb every mountain with God as our strength and shield... Yep you could say I am a VERY happily blessed women who knows our Father in heaven loves us deeply & gives only good gifts... and that this love we have will only grow through the seasons of the soul, as we walk across the unknown and unchartered waters of life, that are set before us....

Yep it's true... I am engaged to an amazing man of God... I have known him for three years, we met through the TAURANGA HOUSE OF PRAYER here in New Zealand... we started dating at the end of last year...

And on March the 13th he got down on one knee and asked me to Marry him... and I said YES... so here we are pretty happy knowing we are going to walk beside one another through every season of the soul and history until death do us part or Jesus splits the sky and we watch an epic ending of this age.

Divine Love

2010-02-20T09:14:00.003+13:00

This morning I woke with a deep ache in my heart for more... more of my Beloved One... more of knowing His depths... not shallow weak knowing but a deep knowing of who He is more then I have ever experienced before... my thoughts where lead to the Mothers and Fathers of the faith of old who had fellowship in such a rich way with the Beloved that I long to know... God is birthing a hunger in me to know HIm more even in the place of suffering, to allow Him to reveal His wounds to me, to let me feel the ache in His heart for those who do not know Him for those who are weighed down and bound in a prison by the effect of sin and death... the ones He longs for... the ones He cares deeply for.. the ones He wants to bring freedom to and healing and deliver them from the snare that the enemy has laid for them... In His lovingkindness He has revealed to me areas of my heart and life that compromises just seemingly little ones have entered but how destructive they can be... and how He wants to bring freedom to me His beloved in a deeper way.... I hear my Beloved whisper to me 'I'm taking you deeper... I am doing a greater work within you... trust Me... trust My hand upon your heart'.

To listen to one who went deep with the Beloved, this is what he has to say:

There is a fire of Divine Love.
It is this love which burns the believer and can even cause the believer to suffer. How? Sometimes the absence of the Beloved greatly affects the believer.
Sometimes the believer hears the inward voice of the Beloved calling. It is a gentle whisper and proceeds from out of the believers inmost depths... where the Lord, the Lover, abides. It is this whisper which possesses the believer almost to the point of undoing. The believer realizes how near is his Lord and yet he also realizes how much the soul has not yet been possessed by Him.
This intoxicates the believer and puts an insatiable longing within him to be changed into the likeness of his Lord. Therefore, it can be said of love: Divine love is as strong as death, for it kills just as surely as death kills.
MOLINOS

This is where I find myself this day... both Realizing my Beloved's nearness yet also knowing their is much of this soul to be possessed by Him... a longing and a ache... although at first discouraged someone wise said to me... 'Remember it is God who is doing the work within you, and He is Faithful to bring you into completion. Trust Him. His timing is perfect!'

Lord today I ask would You help me to be patient as You move and work upon this weak heart, would Youcause me to enjoy Your hand upon my heart and the wisdom of Your timing... lift my eyes this day that I am not focusing on that which is in need of work but upon You the Beloved who is Faithful who is moving in Divine love upon my heart... let my eyes behold You this day.

Revealer of Mysteries.

2010-01-07T21:27:00.006+13:00

'The mysteries of God are dear to Him, and are concealed until it pleases Him to reveal them. He does not allow them to be understood on the basis of intellectual ability or to satisfy human curiosity. We cannot deduce them by the operation of our minds. They have got to be revealed, and God looks and waits for an attitude of heart and spirit in which there is a reverence and appreciation for mystery. When the revelation comes, we are brought into a high responsibility in God. The promulgation of mystery is not merely for our edification and knowledge. God desires His mysteries to be fulfilled. That is why they are given.'

These are the words of Art Katz. I have come to know him, not face to face, but listening to his words and his heart, I have been blessed... to me he is a Grandfather whom I love and cherish.. who loves me. And there is much he has taught me...

My prayer is that my heart and your heart would have reverence for the One who holds every mystery in His hands, longing and waiting for ones He can reveal them to... let us be ones whom when He looks upon our hearts and in our spirit HE sees an appreciation for Him and His breath takingly beautiful mysteries... Abba that we would know You... that we would be revealers of Your mysteries carrying Your precious truth deep within our hearts... as our lives proclaim these beauties.

Set me as a seal upon Your heart...

2010-01-03T19:03:00.004+13:00

I wrote this on Christmas day...
Alana my friend here it finally is... 8)
...and for every other eye that falls upon this page may you be blessed and brought close to the heart of my King... Jesus.

The culmination of the Ages...
The unifying of all of life's stories...
The sound of rushing mighty wind breathing upon the dry bones...
The eternal Word bringing forth His bride from the nations...

Resounding with the glory of their Maker their Beloved,
Arising to meet Him, as the earth shakes with violence and the face of many grow pale.

His burning ones arise, filled with His glory filled with His beauty filled with His very breath His very life.
Her heart is brought forth in love, even in the darkest hour of history...
She cannot deny her Beloved for her heart beats with His,
For her mouth pours forth words she recalls from the secret place of His heart being poured into hers...
Her lips drip with honey and myrrh,
Flowing from an unquenchable flame which burns brightly at the core of her being...
This heart of hers is His, every part of it.

She has called for the winds to come and blow on her heart,
That the fragrance of her Beloved would flow forth,
From the bed of spices He laid so tenderly within the depths of her heart...

He has tendered her garden,
And she has kept it for Him.

She has heard HIs cry to arise and willingly she rises.
As He gives her heart strength to walk into the dark hour.
She fears not, as He has filled her to overflowing with HIs perfect love.
She knows He is with her, for she is abiding in Him.

He is her confidence...
This is my Beloved One, in whom I live and breath,
In whom I have found freedom, in whom has spoken hope to this weary soul,
In whom she finds all her delight.

He is faithful in revealing the destructiveness of all other lovers,
Who have tempted her to leave her first love,
To wonder from this perfect love,
Her Prince of Peace,
Who has called her His very own.

This is my Beloved One...
He draws me ever so near that I may see,
That I may taste,
That I may smell,
That I would know Him in the FULLNESS!

His goodness cannot be denied.

Although He is gentle and tender towards my heart,
He is also zealous that I would know Him in every area of my life...
Jealous that I would know His face, His heart beat for me...
Therefore a most vehement flame is set upon every other lover that tries
to take this heart away from HIm...

And that same flame, the fire of Yahwah, the fire of God Himself,
my Beloved One...
Is set upon my heart,
That I may know His great love for me.

I am sealed by His love His flame,
That burns ever so brightly upon my heart.
I am sealed for my Beloved One...
My forever King...
He has called me His own,
He has given me the honor of taking His name.

The Holy One Himself has cleansed me
So that I may walk hand in hand with Him.
Even here, now, across this land.

Surrounded by darkness, defilement and evil work...
Jesus calls me to arise, covers me with His Holiness,
Fills me with His Spirit of Holiness, and causes
This once dark heart and clouded mind defiled in every way,
Causes me to shine forth His flame,
And sets me ablaze in His unfailing love.

This love that cannot be destroyed...
This love that has eternal lengths...

From before the earth was formed,
His heart beat for us...
Even when this age ends,
and nothing but eternity future is left,
Still His heart will burn for us!

This God who is love...
A Pure Love..
In whom there is no defilement...
This Love is found nowhere else,
It comes from the One true God...
Who Is alive and longs for His return
to these who are called by His name.

So we join in the song of the Ages,
And we cry with Your Spirit
Come, my Beloved One, Come
Make the wrong things right...
Come.

May all who read this be awakened to what the Spirit of the Living God is saying to us this day...
ANd my prayer is that you too would join in this song.

Come look with new eyes... Come listen with new ears...

2009-12-30T12:04:00.003+13:00

I awoke Christmas Eve to a chorus being sung into my heart... one which gave me hope and filled me with joy~ Holy Spirit speaks to me how He best knows I receive from Him straight to my heart. Funny thing is that I thought the chorus was from a Christmas Carol... but I'm not sure it is...

"Hark the heaven's angels sing,
a new King born today,
and now I live forevermore because of Christmas day..."

Is that from a Christmas carol?

(I actually have never really liked Christmas day... it carried so many other pressures and no real enjoyment but this year Abba wanted me to look with new eyes.. therefore meant doing things a little different yet finding so much more... this song was one coat of the revelation God gave me this Christmas... He is truly faithful to us!)

My spirit began to contemplate and these words flowed forth...

'Can you hear the song from heaven, singing all glory all honor all power be unto the Lamb...
I can hear the sound throughout every nation..
Glory Honor Power be unto His name.'

Contemplating this, how beautiful, the nations joining with the angels and heavenly hosts singing a song of praise and honor to our King who once came as a baby to speak of His love and the love of the Father to us... dying upon a cross... defeating the works of sin and death... conquering the grave... rising again... revealing His glorified body risen walking the earth to speak of His victory to His beloved ones... then ascending to heaven where He is now seated beside Abba... sending the Holy SPirit so that we have a divine Helper Counsellor Strength who is God Himself... then once more our King is returning for the most extravagant finale ever to be seen before... this is a song that is filled with all of these truths and promises and that is why to me it is such a beautiful hope producing song that we join together with heaven to sing a song of love to our King calling Him to come... come and do what He longs to do... make all the wrong things right and establish His Kingdom here on earth... and walk amongst us again.

This Christmas day was very humble... yet like I said God was teaching me so much... and in the undistinguished appearance of it all I found it to be quiet beautiful... possibly even the best one yet.

Having breakfast with the friends I live with, opening our one flat gift together and moving on to read the Christmas story in both english and german. We read from Isaiah 9 and Luke 2:1-40. We shared what spoke to us the most in hearing this precious news... it was funny as some parts for me was if I had never read them before and was new for my ears to hear... perhaps this is true... that God wanted me to hear it anew... new eyes and new ears to hear of His Christmas. I shared about how the Shepherds... how our God could have chosen anyone to come and proclaim this good news to, but He chose those who were nameless faceless humble people... the Angel of the Lord appeared to them the glory of the Lord shone around them... speaking of the Messiah and where they could find Him... and if that isn't beautiful enough a great company of heavenly host appeared with the angel and had a time of worship and praise with them unto the King... that which is about to be seen in magnitude was seen in a small portion this night... I love our God I love His enduring steadfastness seen throughout the ages. Beautiful.

As different ones filtered into rooms for rest or stretched out upon the couch... I sat, the cool breeze surrounded me pushing back the warmth of the day, and listened to what had been poured into my heart filling the pages of this journal I had begun a year ago.

Here I ponder...

The culmination of the Ages...
The unifying of all of life's stories...
The sound of rushing mighty wind breathing upon the dry bones...
The eternal Word bringing forth His bride from the nations...
Resounding with the glory of their Maker, their Beloved.
Arising to meet Him as the earth shakes with violence and the face of many grow pale...

Merciful Maker

2009-09-30T19:17:00.010+13:00

I see the color fading from this sunburnt land.
Years of pain, seem to rumble through this nation,
As anger and frustration arise, tormenting a broken generation.

Confusion runs across the minds of many and settles,
As if this is it's home.

A grey cloud filters their gaze,
Causing a dark heavy shadow to fall upon hearts.
Torn inside wanting to escape, yet weak under the power of this darkness.

Merciful Maker,
Would You come shine Your Light
Shatter the darkness of despair.

Merciful Maker,
Come bring Your life into this dark and hurting land.

Merciful Maker,
Call Your Church to "Arise"
Take their stand, Shake off abandonment and rejection of old.

Merciful Maker,
Come clothe Your bride in Your beauty and Your strength,
Wrapped in Your love, Knowing she'd accepted in her Beloved One.

Merciful Maker,
Would You come heal this broken generation,
And the scars that have marred this weary land.

Merciful Maker,
I cry mercy, forgive me and my nation for our stubbornness and pride,
We cry have mercy, would You have mercy,
Come have Your way in this nation,

Destroy the wicked in this land,
Call Your people to come seek Your face,
To humble themselves and pray.

If you have found your eyes upon this page would you join with me in interceding for a nation, Australia the nation God Sovereignly chose for me to be born, a nation in great need of mercy from their Maker, in great need of a Saviour, in great need of knowing they are excepted in the Beloved Lamb of God Jesus Christ, knowing they have been accepted by our Heavenly Father the One who sent His only begotten Son the One who took the spear that they would know He loves them and wants them to eternally live in His Family adopted sons and daughters no longer orphans but sons and daughters of the Living God.... Holy Spirit would You flood this land with Truth would You Abba Father send forth Your Word that Your Son Jesus Christ would be glorified that He would be made known to a broken generation that is in desperate need of the giver of Life eternal the One who made a way for us to enter His Kingdom of Love and of Light forevermore... the One who holds all beauty, the One who gives pleasure forevermore, the only One who can bring this generation from death to life... my King would You arise in this generation and cause this nation to seek Your face, Jesus let Your face shine brightly over this dry and barren land. Have mercy on the nation of Australia, forgive us for our sins and the sins of our fathers, I bring the precious Blood of Jesus before Your throne and cry have mercy on this nation, send Your precious Holy SPirit to flood hearts awaken eyes and cause your loved ones to arise.

Thank you for joining me in prayer please continue to pray for Australia, that we would arise and step into our God given calling. May the Lord strengthen you, may His grace and peace be with you and your family always.

BE BOLD BE COURAGEOUS!!!

2009-09-21T13:15:00.005+12:00

"...Then the churches throughout all of Judea, Galilee, and Samaria had peace and were edified. And walking in the fear of the Lord and in the comfort of the Holy Spirit, they were multiplied." Acts 9:31

This month i have been reading through the book of Acts and pondering our forefathers and the way they walked in this foreign land we dwell in... it was normal to see healing, to be transported in the Spirit, or at least know of a Brother or Sister who had witnessed this reality... they BOLDLY proclaimed and preached the Word of the Lord they walked soberly and in the fear of the LORD. I guess i have been stirred to seek after God in this and challenged to search my heart and ask questions as to why we are not seeing this throughout the body of CHrist... when God's Word is to be is to be BOLDLY proclaimed that signs and wonders may follow... am i living in fear (reverence) of the LORD or the fear (intimidation) of man?

A hunger is being stirred in me to see the church of today walk in the same anointing and greater works and anointing then the Acts church, and i believe this is the desire of God also to be glorified in and through us His body and to add to His (and our) inheritance of eternal worth and value, that is to see men and women worldwide to be added to His Kingdom, His family, sons of the Living God chosen in the Beloved... so go forth and multiply... proclaim with all boldness the Word of the LORD in the name of Jesus Christ that power may come from the Father, Jesus stretching forth His hand that signs and wonders may follow...

BE BOLD BE COURAGEOUS

Proclaim the Man of Truth, God HImself.
May Jesus be lifted high this day.

Truth... Reality... Love... Will you know Him?

2009-08-04T20:36:00.005+12:00

Pondering what the Lord spoke to me and challenged me a couple of years ago that is still relevant for today and wanted to share it with those who find their eyes upon this page.... may you be challenged to seek Him out, just as i am.

[From Thursday, June 21, 2007]

the question...
Recently I was asked a question and upon pondering it I thought perhaps it would be a good thing to share with all you who also are following along with me on this journey… and let you all know things have not always been roses, but I'm learning to see that the thorns are just as important as those sweet smelling, extremely beautiful flowers… that is the breath takingly beautiful times with God, are just as significant as the times of wounding and drawing ever so close to the One who knows how being wounded feels. Even in my complete state of brokenness I see the beauty and wisdom of Jesus, the Messiah who chose to be a Bondservant wounded for us, heart broken, and afflicted, pierced upon a cross… so that we might know Love.

My Question?

"How has this internship and time in the prayer room changed your life?"

FIRSTLY… I thought this is a pretty big call_ 'changed your life', but after contemplating the question I would have to say it is extremely TRUE.

RECENTLY God has been talking to me about foolishness and wisdom…

I've become very much aware of the worlds view on just how foolish my lifestyle is in their eyes and how completely unwise it is to not be working and getting yourself a career… how completely foolish it is to be sitting in a room with other people days on end… because this is all they can see… and to tell you the truth, when I first walked into this prayer room that is all I could see until I gave God the time to awaken me to truth.

You see God has been showing me lately that MANY will say I am a fool, just as they said to Noah, just as they called Paul crazy and John a madman… so I will be know by many… BUT am I willing to be a fool in the eyes of the world? Would I listen to the shouts of the world or will I listen to the still quiet voice of my God, who is wiser then men, and even in His weakest state He is far stronger then men… and God in His wisdom has called me to come and sit at His feet, to give Him the time… that He may pour out His wisdom, that HE may pour out His truth to me, awakening me to my true reality… of WHO HE IS and WHO I am to Him… You see I've become more and more aware that all you see on earth is fading away and will fade away and fail at some point the only certainty we have is the Word of God, His Son and His very Spirit knowing the Father has given all these to us as the most precious, extravagant, most expensive gifts you will ever receive, why? Because He loves you.

We read in Matthew 24:1-13 of the wise and foolish virgins… so as God has revealed to me… He has placed me in a house where I am storing up oil, where I am watching and praying, waiting for Him my Maker, my Husband, my Saviour and Friend... Jesus… so here I sit… here I wait… knowing I am exactly where I am meant to be for His Spirit will continue to lead and guide me… and if I am meant to be doing anything else other then what I am doing, than He will most definitely let me know. I trust in His guiding hand.

SO the three questions I felt God asking me…

"What are you doing with your time? All have been given equal time… what are you using your time for? You will be held accountable for the way you have spent your time… how are you using your time?"

"How much do you know My word? Truly know My word? Know that My very breath of life is upon these words… if you truly love Me you would long to find out all about Me… do you know My heart behind these words… the very reason why I expressed these words?"

The last question was… "Do you know Me, My child? Do you know Me as your Father? Do you know Me as your Husband, for I am a jealous Bridegroom who is jealous for your gaze… where are you looking this day? Who has your attention in this hour? For I am jealous for My bride… Do you know that about Me? Do you know ME? Do you know that I am not a taskmaster, but a Lover of you? How well do you know Me? Will you be offended by Me because you didn't know Me, and turn from Me in your offence? Search Me out now while you still can… for a time is coming… an hour is closing in on us, that time will be no more… and you will be accountable… you will be confronted, will you know Me? I want you to recognise Me… so come to Me now, allow Me to offend you now… that you may be un offended on that day."

I have a urgency within my spirit, that we cannot waste our time anymore! So just as I have been challenged I feel it is my responsibility to challenge others…

So my question to you is…

How are you spending your time?

Do you have any oil? Do you know the intimacy of our LORD, Jesus?
Do you know Him, and will you allow Him to offend you now… that you may know Him in a greater way?
Do you know His word, and the heart beat behind those words?
Do you spend times of watching and praying?

Will you allow Him to break into your comfort zones? For in His love He knows you must know Him in ALL areas of your life… Will you allow Him to love you in ALL areas of your life??

We must not turn from the realities we are living in, and try and numb them out with other lovers, be it food, entertainment, people's wisdom, careers, wealth, success, sleeping, reputation or prestige... You know those things that you turn to when things get tough… the other lovers in your life…

Where is your focus?
Who has your gaze?

We need to live in the true reality of the times we are living in and be turning to our One True Love, the One who first loved us, the One who is Faithful and True, the One who will never fail us is ALWAYS true to His word…. For a day is coming when we will know if we have stored up oil to endure the dark hours of the night… that we may recognise the face of our Lover when we see Him.

Please hear my heart, do not waste that which has been given to you upon those things which will fail you, which will pass away… for we need to be awakened to our TRUE REALITY… We need to be shaken, so as all that is not of eternal value, not of our King Jesus will fall away. That all will remain is TRUTH & HIS GREAT LOVE.

WILL YOU SEE THE STORM COMING?

Or will you be like the ones of Noah's day… who said, 'it will never rain'.

Matthew 25

The Parable of the Wise and Foolish Virgins

1 “Then the kingdom of heaven shall be likened to ten virgins who took their lamps and went out to meet the bridegroom. 2 Now five of them were wise, and five were foolish. 3 Those who were foolish took their lamps and took no oil with them, 4 but the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps. 5 But while the bridegroom was delayed, they all slumbered and slept.
6 “And at midnight a cry was heard: ‘Behold, the bridegroom is coming;[a] go out to meet him!’ 7 Then all those virgins arose and trimmed their lamps. 8 And the foolish said to the wise, ‘Give us some of your oil, for our lamps are going out.’ 9 But the wise answered, saying, ‘No, lest there should not be enough for us and you; but go rather to those who sell, and buy for yourselves.’ 10 And while they went to buy, the bridegroom came, and those who were ready went in with him to the wedding; and the door was shut.
11 “Afterward the other virgins came also, saying, ‘Lord, Lord, open to us!’ 12 But he answered and said, ‘Assuredly, I say to you, I do not know you.’
13 “Watch therefore, for you know neither the day nor the hour[b] in which the Son of Man is coming.

Desert Fathers have alot we can gain...

2009-07-30T20:43:00.003+12:00

Souls that love truth and God, that long with much hope and faith  to put on Christ completely, do not need so much to be put in re membrance by others, nor do they endure, even for a while, to be  deprived of the heavenly desire and of passionate affection to the  Lord; but being wholly and entirely nailed to the cross of Christ,  they perceive in themselves day by day a sense of spiritual  advance towards the spiritual Bridegroom.

  St. Macarius the Great

That Bridegroom is for real... may i too learn to be wholly nailed to the cross of Christ that i may also be wholly risen as He is... "abide in Me, for here is safety, for here is life, for here is love, for here is freedom" I hear the voice of my Beloved speaking over me..." remain in Me for there is safety... for there I will cover you"

Man, how i love the Living breathing God who came and made the Way... who betrothed me to Himself... who calls me His own that i too may call Him my own... i am my Beloveds and His desire is towards me... this is a perfect mystery that i may be one with my Maker... such a beautiful BEAUTIFUL reality.

Today i smile, knowing my Maker loves me and has called me His own, beloved, and i now am a daughter of the Most High Living God the Holy One He has called me His own. 8)

BEAUTY & GLORY

2009-06-10T22:15:00.004+12:00

FOR BEAUTY and FOR GLORY
That we as vessels, holy vessels, consecrated by the precious blood of Jesus... a holy priesthood... the chosen bride for Your Son, Abba, carry the beauty and the glory of Your Son Jesus Christ... that the beauty of holiness, the glory of His entire being is made manifest in and through our lives... such a beautiful mystery. That we may be called the bride of Christ and called Your children, Abba.
The beautiful story and tapestry, You O Lord, have been weaving from the beginning of time. The priesthood. The vessels. Initially contained in one place, which in and of itself was glorious and beautiful. Chosen by a holy God to be consecrated, a representative of Himself, to be one who enters into the holy place to commune with the beautiful holy God. Chosen to carry that which was deemed holy to the One who is HOLINESS, God.
This being only a very small insight, to Your bigger picture, the reality of this truth going forth into all nations... that vessels would not be simply clay, wood or gold; but they would be living breathing beings which You O Lord created with the bigger picture in mind: that which You had painted from before time began. That we, Your holy vessels, Your beloved Bride, Your chosen priesthood would be ones who carry Your very beauty and Your very glory. The completely alluring, intricate yet extremely stunning story You have written us into... that we would be called by Your name. Accepted in the Beloved, Jesus Christ.
“That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of Glory, may give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling; what is the riches of His inheritance in the saints; and what is the exceeding greatness of His power towards us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power which He worked when He raised Jesus from the dead and seated Him at His right hand in the heavenly places..” Ephesians 1:17-20

* Romans 9 * Exodus 28 * 1 Peter 2

Eternal Weight of Glory

2009-05-26T16:02:00.006+12:00

“While we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.”
2 Corinthians 4:18

To look beyond the here and now, to see through the eyes of our heavenly Father, to know the hope to which His Beloved Son has called us into, to walk in a way that speaks of another Kingdom an eternal Kingdom, to know that though our earthly tent is being destroyed but that we have a building from God- a house not made with hands- eternal in the heavens.

Yes, we who are in these tents groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed with our habitation which is from heaven. We groan, being burdened, not because we want to be unclothed, but further clothed, that mortality may be swallowed up by life. Now He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who also has given us His precious Spirit as a guarantee, so we are always confident, knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord. For we are walking by faith, by a realization of things hoped for and a confidence of things which are yet seen... we are not walking by sight of the things which we can see here and now, those temporal things which are passing away, but we lift our gaze setting our heart upon our true reality one of another Kingdom one of eternity one of Glory and Love forevermore ruling and reigning with our Maker our Husband... seated with our Father of glory, seated with our Beloved Bridegroom Jesus Christ. This is why we set our hearts to be well pleasing to Him.

We were once blinded and in complete darkness, but the light of the gospel the glory of Christ, who is the image of God, has shone upon our hearts. It is the God who commanded light to shine out of darkness, who has shone into our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of His Son our Beloved Saviour, that is Jesus Christ. Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward body is perishing, yet our inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.

This has been my ponderings of late... our eternal glory... and therefore my heart of gratitude to my King.

HE IS FAITHFUL!!!!!!!

2009-03-08T15:41:00.003+13:00

I will update shortly....

Take some time to let these truths go deep into your soul,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UqtUqSBYxqQ

Holy Spirit strengthened my inner man my weak heart in hearing these truths which these faithful saints sang both over me and you if you choose to listen and unto God... Jesus is so Faithful Abba Father is so faithful His SPirit is so faithful in bringing the fullness of knowing Him His truths that we would be freed from any lies or deception... His Truth being revealed in His word the scriptures speak so clearly....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UqtUqSBYxqQ

Confronted

2008-11-22T11:10:00.005+13:00

i have been confronted ALOT of late... more i guess by the reality that GOD is GOD... He's Sovereign and well i am not i am simply dust or bone... Therefore i am truly humbled that Jesus the complete or perfect One of full deity and power of all powers having no restrictions other then the truth of who He is, that of His nature and character, became out of His own will, out of His love, out of His compassion, His mercy, His loving kindness, His goodness and faithfulness... in the fullness of truth He came and put on the bonds of flesh becoming even an unborn fetus in the womb of Mary... where He gave up His freedom of the use of His power so to speak and entrusted His Father with His life, only using this power when His Father gave it to Him from on high.

Jesus fully God became COMPLETELY Man.

He knows the pains we go through in our weak human state, He knows the emotions we feel, He knows the joys as well as the sorrows for He too felt the effect of weak flesh... yet still He did not sin. He was tempted in every way yet still He did not sin.

He knows.

Yeshua, the Jesus Christ, a Jewish Man... who was in His Fathers Kingdom- a perfect Kingdom the greatest Kingdom filled with the fullness of life of love of joy of delight... the glorified state of smell, taste, sounds, sights, and textures in a completely pure, perfect, holy way. Yet He was sent with His Fathers blessing so that we could also enter into the fullness of His Fathers joy. For we were created by God to walk with Him in the beauty of His holiness revealed in all that was created...

Then in our weakness, in our complete lack, sin entered.... for ALL have fallen short of the glory of God, we ALL are in need of salvation which can only come through ONE that is the ONLY MAN who walked the earth and DID NOT SIN, even though He was tempted in every way.

Therefore we see He is the only pure and spotless who could be sacrificed, He is the only ONE who could bear the judgement of sin which is death.

Yeshua, fully Man yet fully God, was led to the slaughter like a silent lamb.

He went not kicking and screaming... which i often do when Abba Father is disciplining me- O Lord forgive me for i do not truly know the effect of sin, the complete death and destruction in which sin has not only upon me but on all around- for all creation waits and groans for You O Lord to come Judge sin.

Lord Jesus, Yeshua would You help me...

Help me to see the true reality of sin... that it is not pleasure... it is death and destruction... in the fullest state of death... eternal... this one You created to walk with You in the beauty of Your holiness to be loved by You and to love You... sin cuts me completely from You for You are a Holy God... the only way i become holy is by Your blood which covers me... the way i begin to walk into the fullness of this reality is by another generous gift You have given Your precious Holy Spirit working in me to bring about a completed one ready to stand face to face with her Holy God, her Father, her Husband to stand before You both in holiness. So thank You Abba Father for You are so good to me, to us, You are so merciful and kind sending Your very Holy Spirit revealing the beautiful and terrifying mysteries of Your promise to us Your chosen, revealed to many prophets of old seen in Your very word, the Bible which You have made accessible to us.

Abba Father, our glorious Father, would You give to us revelation by Your ever present Holy Spirit of the truth of sin and death the truth of covenant Your holy blood making atonement bringing me into life eternal life into a beautiful Kingdom into the loving arms of my Holy Father... Help me Yeshua, help us to see what You have done, help us to know that even right now You are pouring Your heart out in intercession to Your Father on our behalf... Help us Holy Spirit that we would know the depth, the height, the length and the width... the fullness of our Makers love for us.

Help us LORD for we are weak but You are strong.

Sometimes...

2008-10-22T21:59:00.003+13:00

i want to scream it from the rooftops...

LOVE

JESUS

MUCH

!!!!!!!!

and He is in love with me.

"i belong to my Beloved, and His desire is for me."

song of songs 7:10

Merciful Maker

2008-09-27T20:46:00.003+12:00

Today i was overwhelmed by the mercy of God... i mean this is GOD the HOLY GOD of Israel...

HOLY in every way,

PERFECT in every way,

WISE in every way,

GOOD in every way,

RIGHTEOUS in every way,

KIND in every way...

well there is not enough pages upon the face of the earth or ink to write all of who God is and to be honest with you i have no idea of the fullness of who God is but what He has revealed is well i am speechless.

This morning God wanted to remind me and reveal to me His mercy... i don't want to write this is a non shalaunt way, (ok i was super bad at english so you're gunna have to over look my lack, sorry), so please just let the weight of this rest upon you as you read and i pray that Abba would give to you His Spirit of Wisdom and Revelation so that He may reveal this to you, cause i know this isnt gunna come out right... so hang in there... or better yet get your bible turn to Hebrews 4:15-16 and sit at Jesus feet for a while and let Him by His Spirit speak some truth into your heart this day/night.

"For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathise with our weaknesses, but was tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need."

Jesus, the great High Priest, has yet again given this weak heart strength and heard my faint cry for help. i am in awe and totally in love with my Merciful Maker.

England_Ireland_France_Germany

2008-07-23T02:18:00.002+12:00

"Stay strong in Me, My child, let us go on again" her Father replied to His weakened daughter as she came asking His help... "how can i go on?" .

This was my hearts cry as i sat in a quiet place the LORD had given me after much turmoil and many battles the world had thrown at me.. although i was weak He was my strength and once again in His Faithfulness He lead me to a place of refreshment after times of wilderness and the heat of the desert was becoming to much almost giving up, again He strengthened me and provided a place for me to rest a while and regain my strength, restoring this weary soul.

Never once have i felt in danger. He is my Protector and even when i was without a bed spending the night in a train station i never once felt fearful or in danger, for He was with me and lead me through the night in safety... He had called me to the night watch and strengthened my tired body with His peace and presence... teaching me once more how to pray for His people the ones He created. the ones He loves, the ones He longs to know Him as He knows them... so as the day became night the LORD spoke of His heart for the nation i was in and the people that are within her walls.

Again He revealed His love for me and those around me.

Father speak to Your people, send Your Spirit that they may know this love that You have always revealed to us throughout the ages even sending Your very Son. Jesus hear the cry of Your bride... how long? when will You return? send forth Your word and touch hearts this hour in every nation in every people group... God Your size in far beyond any boundary or border of time and space... Come LORD would You come.... rend hearts and come down... Hoöly Spirit awaken hearts this day to the the knowledge of Jesus Christ Yeshua our LORD and Saviour our Bridegroom who loves us with an everlasting love beyond time and space... awaken us to the love of our Heavenly Father... the One who longs for the fullness of His family... call forth our family call forth those chosen from the begining of creation.... Come LORD COME!

i am alive

2008-07-14T22:18:00.003+12:00

hey everyone.... just a short email to say sorry for the broken communication.

it seems that blogging is not working as i had planned, so i am afraid i will most probably not be posting many more... well at least not as frequently.#

i am currently in Ireland... extremely green here.

i leave on the 15th for England once more just for the night then i catch the train to France i will be for 3 days then onto our friends in Germany for around ten days or so.

I fly back to England on the 30th July for 3 days then onto Israel... where i am to be for 20days. This is a place i am intrgued to see... also am looking forward to spending time in there prayer room.....

From Israel to Thailand for 9 days then back to Oz for a few weeks to spend time with family and friends before returning home to New Zealand... this should be around mid september.

Well friends and family i will try post again but forgive me if this does nott happen.

love you all much
xoxooxo
Nikki

Sunday in Wenatchee...

2008-06-16T18:47:00.002+12:00

To taste and see the beauty of the LORD
from nation to nation, city to town,
no matter what family or people group, time or season...

To be awakened day by day
to the eternal greatness of our LORD and Saviour Jesus Christ.

To allow the love of our heavenly Father
access to our hearts,

As He is revealed by His Holy Spirit
In the knowing of His Son Jesus,
whom loves in an ever present way.
Whispering words of truth into my heart.
Of His holy powerful love.

Allowing my eyes to see His longings,
The love for us revealed in everything created by His hand.
Allowing my ears to hear the gentle whispers
of His thoughts towards us_ the desires of my Beloved's heart.

Pure in every way,
Passionate beyond measure.

From the adornment of colour upon each waking day,
to the fragrance of love found in a tendered garden,
to the peaceful breeze, which gently rests for a moment upon my sun soaked skin,
filled with the echo's of summer's delight...
a bird's song, children's laughter, the constant sound of a sprinkler set upon freshly cut grass...

All causing joy in my spirit and a song in my heart
for the One who created this for my enjoyment, to meet with Him.

As i sit still before my Beloved His smile is so clear to me,
as i enjoy Him, and He enjoys me.
i am filled with a sigh of delight.

It is by grace and His loving power
that i have come to know...
that He is no longer my Master,
but He is my Husband,
my Maker and my Friend.

This i know He'll never leave me,
for His love it never ends.

His desire is towards me,
Moreso each day i see
that i have been set upon His heart...

Not by obligation or by guilt,
but by choice and His deep love for me.

His fiery love is as strong as death,
He has revealed it throughout the ages.
For my Maker, my Husband
He is a jealous God...
Revealed to all creation.

For He has chosen us to be His bride.

Allow your eyes to be opened,
and your heart to know,
For His Spirit to bring wisdom,
Revealing your Bridegroom's Holy Passionate love.

So come LORD fill our hearts with a love song,
That our lips may sing back to You.
Envelop our eyes with Your beauty,
And opur ears with Your gentle kisses of truth.
That we may be awakened
to the knowledge and delight in You.

Let me sit at Your feet and hear the secrets of Your heart,
Let my eyes behold the truth,
Let me recieve the good part.

For You are the I AM, the I WAS, and the I WILL ALWAYS BE,
You are God who is love,
God who is jealous for Your bride to be.

So i am choosing to stop doing,
all things i think should be done,

and simply start being
and enjoying my Bridegroom's love.

2008-06-12T08:44:00.003+12:00

Filled with promise are the bright glowing beams of a rainbow... proclaiming the goodness of our Maker and His ever present mercy He shows towards us... such lovingkindness shown each day.

The awesome work of our Creator revealed even in the smallest of detail each having been placed there with intention... the Master at work enjoying creating with such delight.

Gazing through a small rectangle window, watching the tarmac disappear and beautiful shades of blue appear then fade into shades of pink as the horizon dissappeared and night became event i sat pondering the wonder of God and His creations... that seemed to praise Him all the more be it through voice or beams of light i also sat in awe of my Maker.

Leaving one nation heading to another i began to ask the LORD what is was He had for me to do during my time in the states, what my 'commission' was so to speak.

Earlier the Holy Spirit had highlighted some things to me... from a magazine a picture of a father and son- joyful, loving, caring... delighted in one another. A man in front of me on the plane with his son only a baby... again such joy and delight.

So i was asking the Lord what should i do now? What am i to pray for?

Clearly and gently, and joy in my spirit placed there by the Holy Spirit, i heard "Enjoy Me, delight in Me, Enjoy ME."

I was so overwhelmed.

I had already seen that there was a job to do and that i was on 'task' mode, but my Maker had a few other plans up His sleeve.

He reminded me of His promise and His ever powerful words He has spoken to us...

Trust in the LORD and do good;

dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.

Delight yourself in the LORD

and He will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the LORD;

trust in Him and He will do this:

He will make your righteousness shine like the noonday sun.

Psalm 37: 3-6

I have a feeling this trip is going to look a little different then what i intended... but exactly what Jesus wants... and to tell you the truth deep down what i want too_

TO DELIGHT IN HIM... Jesus the One i love... the One i trust... He will lead me... Good, enjoyable, safe pastures with the One i love and who loves me.... SERIOUSLY how good is that!!!!!!!!!

OPEN OUR EYES LORD TO SEE THE BEAUTY AND WONDER THAT YOU PLACE BEFORE US EACH DAY, THE PLACE YOU LEAD US TO ENJOY WITH YOU EACH DAY... THANKYOU LORD.

2008-06-11T05:23:00.003+12:00

quick update...

upon leaving Australia i found out that my computer was unable to get fixed before my trip...
Jesus revealed to me this was another comfort tha i was clinging to which i should be ultimately clinging to Him.

Therefore bare with me if my posts aren't as constant as i had originally intended.

Also upon arrival here in the state i felt the LORD wanted me to Himself for a while... this was a good thing... i'm sure you all can appreciate that as i am sure He has also set times aside for you like that and will continue to do so.

narrow

2008-05-26T22:48:00.005+12:00

"Enter by the narrow gate;
for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction,
And there are many who go in by it. (So don't follow the crowd, follow your Shepherd the One who's love for you is stronger then death!)

"Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life,
and there are few who find it." Matthew 7: 13-14

Take His path... you will find that the difficulties are but an opportunity to experience His nearness, to become more aquainted with His everpresent guiding hand, to be awakened moreso to the beauty of His counternance, to know the magnitude of Jesus love for you His precious One in whom He loves deeply. Be one of the few in this story be found upon the path which has entered through the narrow gate.

unseen beauty...

2008-05-26T20:37:00.004+12:00

The other day i was going for a walk to one of my favourite places back here. Up the headland and then to the beach.

While sitting and pondering with the LORD... i couldn't help but be drawn to the many shells that where at my

feet. All broken in some way but all seemed to me to be beautiful... the textures... the colours... the shapes... all beautiful.

Then i was just saying to Jesus how can it be that even in brokenness something can be so beautiful? And He answered me... that is what I think of you... these are My thoughts towards you... yes you are broken... but you are beautiful to Me.

Sometimes it's hard to think that in brokenness you can be found beautiful... but Jesus showed me that in His eyes this is a truth... we are beautiful to Him.

2008-05-23T14:55:00.002+12:00

i am convinced that what i have been called to do by God is more significant then we know...

A Intercessory Missionary.

Who would have thought....
but as i travel and see and feel what is happening in the nations, (now in Australia), i am confident that we need God! In fact more then need... without Him we are but hopeless, running to and fro with no purpose but to get through each day and perhaps if we are 'lucky' we may actually smile at one point. Jesus never wanted us to simply survive life, Abba never intended for His children to wade through water not knowing how to swim barely breathing...

We where made to encounter the most High God moment by moment.

To be captured by His beauty and find overwhelming delight in all of Him. He created you and me to enjoy Him. To laugh with Him... to cry with Him... to share His heart with us and share all He owns with us and all we are with Him... EVERY MOMENT of EVERY DAY... He longs to be with us... to share life with us, ALL of life... but more then that He wants to give us ABUNDANCE in doing this.... the abundance & magnitude of who He is in us....that we would meet Him... talk with Him... share emotions... and stories with Him.

i know without my Maker my life is of no worth... without His presence... i am lost...

My prayer with Jesus today is that we all would be with Him where He is... we would know the longings of His heart... His tenderness towards us... His burning affections for us.... that His words would enter our hearts this day and reveal once more the length, the depth, the height and the width of His love for us, His beloved bride.

"Father, this is My desire that those who You have given Me may be with Me where I am, that they may behold My glory which You have given Me"

May the Holy Spirit open our eyes moreso today to the magnitude of Jesus love for us...
His Bride.

Come LORD Jesus Come.

2008-05-22T19:20:00.000+12:00

it's my brothers birthday tomorrow..

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he turns 30.

that definatly feels not so real... i guess it will be true tomorrow.

as you can see above i love my brother and i am happy to be here to celebrate his life tomorrow... well even today... everyday.

i thank God for giving me Jamie as my brother.

i pray that he would know the love of the Father, the love of Jesus, the ever present leading of the Holy Spirit... and the reality of the goodness of God towards him.

if you're reading this please pray for him... a birthday gift that would not go unheard by God.

ALWAYS FAITHFUL!!!

2008-05-22T16:00:00.004+12:00

As the hour draw near to my departure date, a few realities set in that i didn't want to think about and some of my fears that had been hiding became evident as Holy Spirit revealed these areas of my heart.

Abba, in His goodness towards me, did not just want to leave these fears unveiled but He wanted to set His truth into my heart and give His peace to me.

i remember a few days before leaving, i was afraid of travelling alone. That night in the prayer room i knew i needed to be real about this before Abba, and ask Him to help me... more then anything at that time i knew i needed to trust who He was and place this into His hands knowing He would care for this. That night i was woken from my sleep, i knew it was the LORD He wanted to talk with me. Normally i am not the quickest at waking up but my spirit and mind was clear and alert when He woke me.

As the LORD began to speak into my spirit, i was aware of His might and power, He spoke three simple lines...

'Why fear? For I WILL be with you.

Why fear? For I AM going with you.

Why fear? For I AM coming with you.'

These words caused this fear and concern i had to flee... it had no chance to cause havic with in my heart or mind. I remember saying 'thank You LORD... WOW you certainly answered my cry quickly.' I awoke the next morning confident that i had nothing to fear for God WAS, IS and WILL BE with me.

Still a fox was to be found lingering within my heart, but my Maker my Husband was not going to let it destroy the work of His hand.

I was scared of leaving the safe place i was in, the safe and loving community i had found myself in... the Holy Spirit revealed to me that i was afraid of leaving this place for an extended season... He showed me a picture of my hands. They were holding tightly onto something, causing my knuckles to go white, for i was afraid to let go and leave this community. Jesus moved quickly to answer my questions and set at ease my heart. He sent someone to pray for me, a faithful friend and sister, in her prayer she answered all the questions i had only a few minutes earlier asked the LORD... only He had heard these cry's of my heart... i knew He was answering me and setting at ease my heart once more.

He spoke to me that He was the One who lead me to this family, into this sanctuary and that He would lead me to pools of water in the desert, He would place people beside me as He did here. I had failed to recognise that He was the One who had provided for me here... both physically and spiritually. He had cared for me and tended to the needs of my heart and that He would be the One to refresh me, sustain me and love upon me, He would care for me as i went from this place.

In His lovingkindness He was causing me to see and know that He was and is my security, SECURE IN CHRIST ALONE. Therefore i am in the safest place in Him... leading me each step... my foot in His footprint... i am in Him... safe and secure in Him.

SO where am i going?

2008-05-05T14:49:00.002+12:00

Hey Everyone...

Through this blog you'll be able to track with me as i head off on this adventure with God.

I plan on letting my life be an open book, so to speak, for most of this trip.

And as i see i will write and as God reveals i will type.

I believe God not only wants to speak to me on this trip but also many of you... and I believe He will give me stories not only for myself but also to speak to others... maybe somethings won't even really make sense to me... but that's because it's for one of you.

My hearts desire is that i would know my Maker my Husband more, that i would know the heart of the Father more and that i would be sensitive to the leading of His precious Holy Spirit, being in constant fellowship with Him.

My prayer is that we all would be awakened an a greater level to know the fullness of God... to know Him intimately and to walk close to Him... this is my prayer for us all.

So i invite you to join me on this journey of greater awakening in to the heart of our King, Jesus Christ, the Jewish Man from Nazareth... God who walked this very earth to reveal His heart for us all.

My Trip begins right here in Tauranga, New Zealand but will soon lead me across many waters, through lands i have yet known, into the heart of many, but most of all i will be lead by the hand of my King.

i hope you will be stirred to seek God out more and more, while He still may be found.

in the waiting

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Fifteen days until i leave this cosy, yet at times uncomfortable, dwelling that i have come to grow and love. So until then i find myself in the waiting... realising there is much to be either gained or lost while waiting... and sometimes both. i have decided i would rather gain a greater intimacy in knowing my Maker and i am ok with loosing all that stands in the way of this knowing. i would rather loose all, then waste my time running ahead of all that God has for me right here right now.

So i wait.

i listen. and i watch.

And already He has eased my heart with His gentle loving arm, catching some foxes i allowed back into my heart... those little fears... the ones if left a while can destroy much of the work the LORD has done in my weak heart. Once again He reveals His love for me... the Faithful love that cuts away and captures all that hinders growth in Him.

Now my hearts at ease learning moment by moment to rest in Him, to trust in His unfailing love.

Yes there are still things to do, but i am no longer allowing those cares to consume me, for i am learning to direct my concerns to the One who cares for me most. i am learning that Jesus wants to take control of these things for me. And once again i find myself growing in love with my Maker... how could it be this God who became a Man, walked the earth to reveal His love for me... served me in every possible way yet still in such meekness He comes to serve.

What love is this? God became a Man and died for me... rising again to intervene by prayer this very day on behalf of me and you... the King who came to serve... meek in everyway...

What love is this?

a love not of this world... nor of this age... or spirit... but one of holiness, of purity, of eternal value... bringing forth life in every way. This is the Love i want to know.